The Girl With No one


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Tiffany :

I’m a lonely nomad, travelling from place to place

I long for kind company, but there’s no-one with a friendly face

All I want is somewhere to sleep. A place I can call my own

But instead, I wander aimlessly, because I don’t have a home

I’ve dreamt that I’ll find a friend, someone to keep me going

I don’t think that person exists, but there is no way of knowing

I shelter in public toilets, in hope that I’ll escape the rain

Lying awake in the dampness, I cry myself to sleep again

I’m the girl with no-one, because I don’t have a home;

Terrified of the future, I’m certain that I will die alone.

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©Sophie Bowns 2011-2015

A Way Out


Man at wits end

I’m not going to lie any longer, there’s no hope and I am done

I’ve been a useless boyfriend; I’ve fought in arguments which can’t be won

I’ve debated ways of doing this, but there are no painless options

I need a quick way out, not to die slowly from a toxic concoction

My family don’t know, but I’ve seen my Mum for the last time

But I can’t confess to her, they’re not her issues, they are mine

I can sincerely say that I’m done for, Joe doesn’t love me anymore

The man I once looked up to; he was the role model I adored

I thought he cared for me too, but he turned his back on me

Perhaps if I end it now, from my suffering I can finally be free

I’m feeling light, and dizzy. This medication messes with my head

I might have taken too much, but I don’t care, I wish I was dead.

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©Sophie Bowns 2011-2015

The Defeatist by Sophie Bowns


Originally posted on Kate's Entertainment Room:

defeatistThe story follows Jude Reed, a man who commits suicide on an early January morning in 2014. While the story itself is based around paranormal encounters, it’s far from the usual fantasy novel you would expect. The story travels back and forth in time and while it sounds confusing, I remind you of Murakami’s “Hard Boiled Wonderland & The End of the World” which follows the same pattern to great success.

When I think of popular authors, The Defeatist starts out in the spirit of Salinger’s “The Catcher in the Rye” but slowly becomes more existential. It sways towards Camus’s “The Stranger” and links so perfectly with the themes that I’m surprised no one ever thought of drawing the parallels — I salute Sophie Bowns for taking matters in to her hands and creating a fantastic piece of work with the best of both works.

This is not a book…

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My Review of The Defeatist by Sophie Bowns

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Sometimes you don’t realise the mess you’ve made until you hit rock bottom. My life is a car crash, and the only person I can blame is myself. I was the reason that my parents broke up, and I ruined my own chances of happiness. I’m not proud of what I’ve done, and worst of all I hate the person I’ve become. My name is Jude Reed, and when I arrived, I was helpless and alone.
Then I met Tiffany and everything changed…

The Defeatist by Sophie Bowns is an in-depth look into the life and death of Jude Reed. Looking down at his lifeless body, Jude’s thoughts turn to the people he has left behind and the impact that his decision will have on them. The Defeatist elegantly jumps from 21st century to the 20th century, slowly peeling back the layers of Jude’s childhood and adolescent years, uncovering the…

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In Fear


Jude Reed :

I’m shaking in my boots; I have to get a grip

Perhaps I should blurt it out, so my words will come out quick

I might be able to confess with speed, I need to get this out the way

How the hell do I tell my Dad, what am I supposed to say?

Time is ticking now as we wait for him to come through the door

I get up from the sofa, proceeding to pace the floor

The bell goes, I die with fright. Oh Jude, pull yourself together

Dad’s going to go berserk, Simon will hold onto this forever

Dad emerges and frowns at me; he asks me if I’m ill

The blood has drained from my face, I haven’t told him still

I creep about the subject with caution, ‘Dad, I’ve been seeing someone.’

His face relaxes, ‘is she pretty?’ I look in desperation at Mum

He really hasn’t twigged; I can do this, yes, Jude you can

‘He-he is good looking, yes.’ I admit that I’ve been seeing a man

‘You’re a queer?’ He gasps, oh God, he’s furious and more!

Something hits me, I black out, as my body sinks to the floor.

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I’d Rather Be Dead ~ My novel, “The Defeatist” is FREE 17.8.15 – 18.8.15


Jude Reed :

People would have described me as a quiet boy, perhaps too shy for some

I grew up with a traditional Dad, and a loving, wonderful Mum

Dad thought that I was weak, and in time I proved him right

I’d got to the stage where life caught up to me; I’d lie awake in fright

I thought that the grass was greener on the other side

Assuming I’d found a loyal partner, I thought in him, I could confide

I imagined that this was a safe haven, somewhere I could finally belong

How could I have been so naïve? Because, as always, I was wrong

Joe and I had our problems, he was brash and I was weak:

Reacting to his sarcastic remarks, when I should have turned the other cheek

Our relationship was crumbling, and my terrible news was the final straw

He shouldn’t have found out in the way he did, it felt damaging and raw

Yes, I kept the truth from him and Joe couldn’t forgive me, it broke us

I should have begged harder for him to stay, kicked up some sort of fuss

I’m curled up on the sofa now, half-frozen, feeling empty and alone;

Hating the four walls around me, in this house I once called my home

The bitter tears sting and stain my cheeks as I rest my pounding head

I’m half of the man I was, and without Joe, I’d rather be dead.

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©Sophie Bowns 2011-2015

The Defeatist, and my learning experience. (I’ve scheduled two free promotion days on Amazon Kindle for 17th- 18th of August)


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Dear readers,
I’ve decided to use my last couple of free promotion days together before they run out at the end of the month. I think it’s a case of trial and error and luck. My first two promotion days weren’t all that successful, but the one I did back in July was. I had 135 downloads in just under 24 hours, and managed to get a few reviews from it.
-I’d like to say a big thank you to everyone who has taken the time to read and review “The Defeatist” so far. It means a lot to me! (It has a 4.6* average rating on Amazon, and I can’t help but feel a little bit proud!)

Learning curves- Goodreads trolls.

Goodreads has taught me that there are trolls out there. I have to admit that I’m not very keen on using Goodreads as a platform. People seem to think that they can write whatever they want on there, or leave you a poor review, with no reason why.
An editor approached me on WordPress, offering her editorial services. I wanted to know more, so got in touch with her via my personal email. At first, she was pleasant enough and then we got onto pricing. She wanted to charge me approximately 1p per word. That seems like nothing, but “The Defeatist” is just over 98,000 words long, which would have amounted to £980! I have to admit, that I got cold feet and I basically told her thanks, but no thanks. I barely knew anything about her, and didn’t want to jump in at the deep end. Nothing more was said, until about a week later, I checked my Goodreads profile, and to my horror she’d left me a 2* rating. No comment, no constructive feedback, just a horrible, 2* review. My heart absolutely sank. It was so ironic; I’d actually spoken to her about people trolling authors work. I didn’t know what to do, I honestly felt absolutely devastated and stepped away from the internet for a while to decide what to do. I plucked up enough courage to ask her why, and she couldn’t even give me a straight answer. I decided to cut my losses as asked her to either : add a comment, or delete the bad rating. She chose the latter option.

What’s next?

-I’m always on the hunt for new book reviewers! If you’d be interested, please contact me on Twitter @SE_BownsFiction or Facebook : https://www.facebook.com/TheDefeatistNovel

I’d love to say that I’ve just started writing a new novel, but unfortunately, I haven’t had ‘that’ wave of inspiration yet! I’ve tried planning various ideas, but none of them have come to light yet. Perhaps I need a longer break. I’m hoping that I’ll be able to start planning and writing a new novel/ novella by the end of the year, but who knows?

Where can you download ‘The Defeatist’ ?

‘The Defeatist’ will be FREE on Amazon on :

Monday 17th August – Tuesday 18th August.

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©Sophie Bowns 2011-2015

Did You Love Him?


Henry & Grace

I’m feeling slightly uncomfortable; there are things I don’t know
How well did you know him? How far back did you two go?
Did you think of him romantically, did he have feelings for you?
I don’t know what to think now, perhaps you loved him too.

Henry, it wasn’t like that. I haven’t mentioned him a great deal
I no longer know what to think, or even understand how to feel
Perhaps I could have helped him, and I wouldn’t be in this position
We used to be friends, until someone changed him beyond recognition.

An extract from chapter 5 :
January 2014

She’s sleeping, wrapped in the security of her boyfriend Henry’s arms. I’m jealous, really jealous actually. I wish that someone could have cared for me like that. Grace probably has a great life, she has a lovely house. He strokes her arm, and she stirs.
“Can I talk to you?” He whispers.
“Yeah.”
“Okay, umm. I’m going to be blunt, how well did you know Jude Reed?”
“What do you mean, Henry?”
Oh no! I know what he is implying. Grace and I were complete acquaintances by the end, I mean we’d say a polite ‘hello’ if we ever bumped into each other or make small talk about the weather. That was it.
“Babe, I didn’t know him by the end. Not really. Ummm, I mean we might see one another once in a blue moon, and it really was.”
“Oh, I see.” He doesn’t sound impressed.
“Why are you questioning me?”
“I- I wasn’t. Look, I’m sorry.”
“Hmm.” Grace narrows her eyes. “You should know something…”
“What?”
“He wouldn’t have been interested, even if I did fancy him.”

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He Changed You


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Grace

Where did the old Jude go? On you, I could always depend;

My old prom date, homework buddy, first and foremost my friend

Why did you cut all ties, knowing I wanted to keep in touch?

You broke my heart Jude, and in truth, I loved you too much.

Who was that person in your life? You let him take my place

I’m so broken-hearted. My emotions are a disgrace

Did Joe treat you well? I suppose that you were close

I miss our days together, but it’s your laugh I miss the most

I’m talking into thin air, yes I know that I am wasting my breath

I’ll have to find some answers, Jude. What was the real cause of your death?

Joe changed you for the worst; well your Mum seems to think so

What did you conceal from us? There was something that we didn’t know.

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©Sophie Bowns 2011-2015

Pulling Through


(Tiffany & Jude)

Perhaps I’m a bit much, am I ‘in your face?’
You’re about to tell me to shut up. Yes, put me in my place
My purpose is to help you, get you out of this depression
Think of me being here as a little therapy session
We have to keep ourselves going if we want to pull through
I don’t know how I know; let’s say that I just do.

Just ignore my self-pity, I know you mean well
Do we have a purpose? I suppose only time will tell
I know you’re trying to help me out of my depression;
But I am not a patient, and this is not a therapy session
Will we reach our journey’s end? We might never pull through
You seem to have a sixth sense. You know me better than I do.

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